Just go with it...

Just go with it even if it is a school night.⠀
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Yesterday I created a little sign that I literally dreamed up. The beauty of it is in its simplicity. “I AM NOT” and once you cross out the NOT part -  absolutely everything changes. Yesterday, I was not going to be productive because I felt down about relationships with my friends, about the treatment I received months before from my managers, about broken hearts, about the world suicide prevention day.⠀
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I created my little note and really focused on what I could be and what I could do… I ended up having a productive workday and a productive afternoon (building-a- shed- for- a- bit work/workout). Then I was getting hot and tired and bogged down by how many things in my life needed to get fixed so I almost cancelled my evening plans… but I did not because I had a kid-free husband-free time booked for me and my things. That time is important for refilling my cup, for refueling my passion for life.⠀
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I went out with a group of some wonderful friends. I saw the most amazing sunset. I had time to get a little bit lost in a neighborhood that I have passed by so many times. I tried new flavors and saw new people. I supported a local business or three! I discussed art, and poetry, and puppies, and plants, and the contents of my carry-all purse.⠀
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I almost decided to cut the night short because it was a “school night” and I knew that 5 am would come so fast and that my radio would soon turn to some heart-break song for me to start my workday. I almost quit…  to go wonder down an old neighborhood to search for wherever I left my truck in the ‘one hour’ zone while being gone for much longer. But then someone said they will stay for tacos and tequila. How can you not stay for tacos and tequila on such a beautiful summer night? How can you not let that truck sit for a few more minutes if you already got a parking ticket (I didn’t)? How can you not want to sit on a patio and watch the world slowly come back to normality? How can you not want to watch happy people have happy meetings? How can you not enjoy the sun and the warm evening temperatures after we’ve already had the first snow? How can you not want to throw on a coat of bright red lipstick and wrap yourself in a soft shawl, surround yourself with great friends, and laugh at the things you'd do for the 'gram'?

Because I chose to say "I AM" instead of "I AM NOT" I grew a little bit personally, I've shared and I've listened, I've accepted and I've met, I've talked, ate, and looked, and touched, and felt, and experienced. At the end of the day, I felt complete. ​

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